Anxiety part 1

I don’t know if I have talked about this before. If I have, sorry, but If I didn’t okay then lets get into it. You can find almost everything about a person online. By how they write and talk, by asking questions, and by how they look. If you want I can do a whole post about it. (you guys have to tell me. Leave me questions to answer below.)

I try not to let that much of my personal life be known. My twitter is very vague in tweets. I try not to mention where I live, what my siblings names are, what religion I am, etc. My mum did write a list of rules for what I can or can’t say online. I actually like that. I don’t have a filter in my head about what I should or should not say. I just speak my mind. I think thats a blessing and a curse. Its not like the Cantor (divergent), who always speak the truth. I’ve had 16 years of practice. When I was younger my parents could tell when I was lying by the shifting of my eyes, higher voice, stuttering, being too giddy and giggling (still working on that one), etc… I need to stop talking about that. Back on topic, we all worry. About what people think of us, how we look, the weather, etc… For some people, like Zoella and myself, it’s a bit more than that.

When you talk about being worried, thats different than having anxiety. Well its the same but there are different levels. There’s your everyday Joe, who worries about grades or life. Doesn’t freak out over it. Maybe one actual fear. There is extreme anxiety in which you have panic attacks. I get this a bit when It comes to different things, like Glow sticks, balloons, bugs, small spaces, etc. I’m scared of everything. Thats what anxiety is for me. I also do this weird thing with my hand. I'm like grabbing/gropping the air.

Since this is taking too long, I will continue on a different day.

-KC signing off xx